Fucked up in my head Lay down in my bed Touching your shirt You know I want you bad Watching you take off your pants You make me feel bad about myself I’m wasting my time, I can’t be helped Swallow my cum I will make new friends Taking off my clothes Sober and aching I’m cold
I dwell on things that break my own heart, I think and think until I drink and drink, it’s the side of myself that I’m most comfortable with; the side of me that lets me sleep. I dwell on things to break my own heart because I could give a shit about how I think.
I just keep hoping my brain, my heart, and my guts will stop don’t call me a coward when I say these things just be proud I’m not ashamed of who I am just be proud I’m not like you.
But who’s gonna push my wheelchair around when I get sick? God forbid I ever stop feeling sorry for myself, for being selfish This is not the way I plan on living for the rest of my life But for right now, it gets me by, you wanna go get high?